The excerpt represents the core issue or deciding factor on which you must meditate, and is drawn from The Great God Pan by Arthur Machen:|
that, upon mature consideration, and after weighting the good
and evil, I shall one day destroy this paper, or at least leave
it under seal to my friend D., trusting in his discretion, to
use it or to burn it, as he may think fit.
"As was befitting, I did all that my knowledge
suggested to make sure that I was suffering under no delusion.
At first astounded, I could hardly think, but in a minute's time
I was sure that my pulse was steady and regular, and that I was
in my real and true senses. I then fixed my eyes quietly on
what was before me.
"Though horror and revolting nausea rose up within me,
The Great God Pan